When our practice, or how we would like to be, has not become a part of our operating system, we often default to our old behaviors when things get crazy, tough, or depressing because those old behaviors are a part of our OS. It can feel too hard to operate differently when we have so many mountains to climb. The new tools can feel inaccessible. And that’s because they are new.
Or, we can find a new way to be during challenging times, because that’s our motivation, and we do it until things get a little better, and either the plateau or the perceivably good kind of busy takes over and we drop the new way back to our old. Until things get “bad,” and then we revisit the “new,” perhaps asking why we ever left it.
Either way, we often pick up new systems as a reactive measure and miss the real value in a daily discipline to integrate it as a part of who we are. If you experienced the miracles of your practice just over a few weeks or months, and you felt the potential of what it could do over time, imagine where it could take you once it became your new OS.