What do you want, Savitree?
asked my coach many years ago. I looked at him without a clue. I had been practicing yoga and other spiritual disciplines long enough, and I had gotten pretty good at not wanting or being attached.
“I want to serve.”
Do most of us know what service really means? For those of you who consider yourself really good at serving, how good are you at taking care of (serving) yourself? And how sustainable and impactful do you believe one can be at serving others if one can’t serve oneself?
“That’s too big. What does Savitree want?”
Two weeks later, I came back with a list of wants. Some on my list were things that I worked hard not to want. I was concerned. My coach was happy. “I’ve created a monster!” he says.
And that was good?
He advised not to judge my desires as right or wrong. Just to always know what I want.
When our commitment is spiritual alignment, the desires that need to drop off will do so on its own. Remember that what you resist persists. Eventually, the relationship to those objects (of concern) will shift.
Doing so will help you to get back IN control. Knowing what you want and why informs your path, and that will serve you in the long run. Judging your wants may create obstacles to fulfillment.
Let’s go to another place to get out of control: communication! Stop the nice-nice when it is not authentic. People see through it anyway.
communicate and express yourself in the moment. Because there is only The Moment.
I invite you to play a little bit. Speak truth, and speak directly. Please remember that truth is kind and direct. Speak only what elevates. Our friends are not dumping grounds for our monkey minds. Speak immediately. There is no time like the present. Unless you are hijacked by your emotions; then give it up to 24 hours. If that is the case, you might want to create accountability for yourself and say something like: Hey, I need to talk to you about ____, but at the moment I am blind-sighted by my emotions, and it wouldn’t be an intelligent conversation, so could we discuss this tomorrow morning? Whether you follow these suggestions or you decide to stuff and internalize, please note that they will all come out anyway. And if you decide to express bluntly in the name of truth, then you may wish to ask yourself if it is working for you and for those around you. Our desire is to strengthen direct communication and manifestation and not sideways, passive aggressive hell, which promotes confusion and indecisiveness. Directness, personal relevance and kindness feeds clarity and peace.
Mistakes are allowed. It’s how we grow. Discover your wants. Speak up. Eventually your words will come out the way you want them to, and your desires will take true form.
Loving me and you, Savitree