February 18, 2010 § Leave a comment
Many of you know that I am getting close to the end of my 1000 day meditations: Sodarshan and Sat Kriyas. It ends April 19. Already, I plan to continue on with Sodarshan because it is helping me through the critical transitions that I am currently going through in my life. It is grounding me in my own space. At this moment, the Sat Kriya is kicking my ass; it is difficult to get through and I can hardly take the physical sensations I experience as I practice it. How I know which kriya is doing what I will never understand, but I do.
Today, the Sat Kriya is once again blowing my heart wide open. The elevation is remarkable. The feeling of love overwhelming. Love of what? Everything. If I had to guess what it felt like to be on ecstacy, this might be it. But not really. The experience is pure, profound and expansive. It’s not all joy, however. There is a small element of pain infused into it. Nothing devastating, just this feeling of connection to all that exists in this world. I don’t know what to do with this energy, but it feels safe and grounding.I suppose the idea is to just let it flow and allow it to become a part of me.
My very first sensational experience since I’ve started the 1000 days was this heart-opening that I just mentioned which happened around day 120. Subsequently, as these meditations began to work on a different level, a different aspect of me, I literally felt myself “walking through” a door or passage into the next part of myself that was to be cleared, or worked on. It’s been a while since I’ve experienced this walk-thru. Here it is now, the explosion- my circle back perhaps for A-prime. Could it be an accident that my son comes home with a song to practice for a school performance from Whitney Houston called “The Greatest Love of All [is happening to me],” a song I haven’t heard in how many years? “I found the greatest love of all inside of me.” I’ve run into a number of energy healers and lightworkers lately and the message to me is “take care of yourself,” “nurture yourself.” I’ve been doing that, yes. Partially. But take it to a whole new level, and I don’t think I’ve even scratched the surface.
I feel more vulnerable and at the same time more in my power. I have never felt more at a pivotal moment in my life than I am right now.
My request to the Universe is to keep sending angels my way that will support my growth and love me in a kinder, more gentler way.