I thought I was on track.
That said, there were definitely rumblings beneath the surface prodding me to rework a few things in my life and get to them more quickly than I was doing. My foot drag was nothing more than a desire to avoid the necessary communications and going through the social re-balancing that comes with making change.
Nothing like finding moths* in my home with a Monday night deadline to do my part for it, and then spraining my right ankle just before going on a college visit with my son with the upcoming yoga teacher training immersion week looming to create some serious overwhelm and prod me out of the drag.
[The “foot drag” and the foot injury I just incurred wasn’t lost on me.]
I can go one of two ways with this: put my energy towards “life sucks,” bitching about it, and enrolling others in my chaos, or towards stopping to reorganize everything and getting about my business. This includes sitting down for my meals without multi-tasking, continuing to blog, and getting my practices in.
This entailed understanding what I must do, knowing what’s important, and what my timelines were. What were my options, and again how important were they? What can I drop? What’s worth paying for? How do my decisions impact the “stakeholders” around me, and in turn, impact how I relate with them?
How I feel about any of it rarely entered the picture except for this:
Wow, I get to pare down on my responsibilities and take learning to prioritize, drop things, ask for help, take help, and purge the excess to a higher level.
*if you know nothing about clothing moths, read on, and I’ll tell you. I thought they were fairly benign before my downstairs neighbor first starting sharing with me that she had them. Then I found few in my place. Moths lay 50-100 eggs before they die. They love the expensive stuff (wool, cashmere, alpaca, etc), but will take synthetic stuff as well if it is blended with anything else organic. They love pet hair. They are gross, and their larvae are incredibly destructive. There are 4 ways to get them out of your fabrics: dry clean, freeze, wash in hot water, or iron. You need to make a decision with each thing whether you will choose one of those 4 options or throw the garment or fabric out. Once you clean them, you will need to contain them in an air tight container until you know the problem is resolved. You have more stuff than you will ever know. Clothing moths like dark, undisturbed places, so the stuff that you don’t wear often need to be shaken regularly or well protected. Cedar doesn’t work; they only deter if the cedar still has a scent. The pH in vinegar kills the eggs. Rubbing alcohol works. They can lay eggs in cracks and will accept dust as laying nests, so the insides of closets will need to be scrubbed down with vinegar or alcohol. Do it right the first time, or you may have to go through cleaning everything again. Good lesson in life. The way I treat and store my clothes, as well as my approach to laundry, has changed forever.